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OVERREACT, GIGS, & HEALTH

Lebay tuh cuma ada di indonesia, menurut gw. Walaupun emang secara bahasa, lebay itu emang ada dimana-mana. Overreact lah internationally nya. Dalam bahasa Indonesia sendiri lebay kan bukan bahasa baku. Iya kan? CMIIW. :))

Kenapa gw pengen ngomongin lebay? Oke ini salah satu contoh aja ya dari segala ke-lebay-an orang Indonesia.

MY PAPA

jumat sore, 23 november 2012

di kantor, papa nunjukin pesan yang ada di blackberry nya ke gw. isinya tentang some festival di jababeka buat besok sabtu. keliatannya seru.. dalam hati gw. "yay, asiiik besok kita kesana ya pa!" papa senyum aja seneng karena tau gw pasti suka.

balik dari kantor, mama bilang kita pulangnya besok pagi-pagi aja, karena hujan macetnya pasti gila-gilaan. "abis shubuh lho ya, jam 5 pagi!", kata mama gitu tau anak-anaknya paling males bangun pagi.

#7

jangan dicari
jangan ditunggu
lagi.

#6

Here I am, in this phase again.
Ya Allah, please forgive me for this, please give me strength.
Don't let my heart feels this way ever again.
Because, I don't want to always question You, 'why is this always happening to me?'

#5

whenever I go alone, my feet are wandering everywhere with nowhere to go. till I got tired, exhausted, that's the time I knew or realized where I should have gone, home.

#4

now that everything seems too late
the time that once felt too soon

TOP 10 OF THE MOST PLAYED SONGS

Hello..

I should be sleeping right now, because tomorrow is Monday. *duh* But, I'm still waiting for my phone to be finished syncing. And while I'm doing that, I notice that plays counter of the songs (which I never really care about before), and think 'wooow, there are actually many songs that I never listen to, but still I don't want to delete them' :)). So, I guess I'll make a post of top 10 most played songs in September 2012. Because I remember the last time I rearranged almost all the songs in my iTunes about a month ago, so the most played songs now really show my mood, maybe? whatever. Here is the list..

#3

I took the wrong turn.
Guess I'm screwed already.

#2

Hey, you know, I kinda, sorta, umm.. miss you.
Just so you know, uhh.. okay, yeah, bye.

ANAK GEMBALA

I always want to have a little goat as a pet. I think they are sooo cuuute >.< Check out these two cuties, they are not mine tho. :D

me, chasing two little goats :))

#1

what was actually happen?
what went wrong?
I play the memories back from the last to the first.

TRIPLE BELLY BUTTON

look, I wear a skirt! :D

MUMBLING #1

It is.. somehow sooo romantic how two people can have a real deep quick feeling for each other. You don't expect it, you don't plan it (duh!), you don't even think about it, but it's possible! Is that what it's called as a fling?

SHADES

I love how monochrome looks in picture. And what makes it become more lovely, because 'colors' feels so mainstream lately. Don't you sick of it? As if, there's a little child ask to his/ her parents,

"Mommy, what is a rainbow?"

SECRET GIG MOCCA IS DETECTED!

"Oh, secret admirer
When you're around the autumn feels like summer
How come you're always messing up the weather?
Just like you do to me..."

Those might be the first Mocca's song I listened to. When I was in junior high school, I saw my friends looked so excited after they bought Mocca's first album, My Diary. The album cover looks so nice with sweet color. And when I got home, I found out my sister has it too! :D So, that was the first time I fell in love with their songs.

THE 18 LIST: JULY 2012

so far so so... I kinda lost memories of what happened on July. Good things I wrote some of them earlier. *cheat* hehe :D

1. Second batch experiment

Uhh.. it didn't work out the way I want it to be.. but hey! I learned from experiences, so I can revise my recipes. But Ramadhan came, so I had to postpone this 'experimenting' things. Let's do this next month!

CAN IT?

it's magic how every song you listen to can bring you to a specific time or event happened in your life. but, can it bring you to the future?

PERIOD

sekuat-kuatnya cowo mereka ngga akan pernah tau gimana rasa sakitnya kalo cewe lagi menstruasiiiiiii!

days when you are on period,

NO FRUIT FOR TODAY

no fruit for today - sore

slowly down the avenue
and the irony of liking you
what was to be some brand new shoes
now them colour has come out pure blue

There is that conversation your parents make, when they give advises and start to use "when we are not around anymore" sentence.. then you just sigh and "oh, come on.." and giving them the *please, don't say that" look. But inside, you do realize how precious times are.

The clock is ticking, and no one knows who'll be leaving.

Hey, that rhymes!

I don't remember giving out my number to anyone. But this is the third time in a week I got text and call from a stranger. And every time I ask them, "who is it?" It always like this, "Masa lupa?!" "Masa ngga tau?!" "Ini gw... gw lhoo.. masa ngga kenal suaranya?"

Seriously, stop it you dumbass. 

THE 18 LIST: JUNE 2012

Yay! First post of The 18 List! :D

Just so everyone know, this list is not made in a particular order. It is random. So, there's no the best, the worst, or anything in between.

1. The complete season of Friends (TV Series)

Yes! You read it right! Who doesn't know Friends series? It will bring you nothing but a goooood time. :))

I know I am so late about this. I have been looking for the dvd since ages! But, I just bought the complete season of it and now haven't finish them yet :D. I spend almost every night watching it. Oh yeah, that's the reason I ditched my yoga and spinning classes. *sorry :P But, I am sure laughing is one of the calorie burner too, right?

THE 18 LIST

I never updated this blog before, and had this urge to update it more often.. so I decided I will make a post that posted regularly. It will be The 18 List! No, there's no special reason about the name. Umm.. maybe because my birth date was on 18th. So, about this post.. guess I will write down anything, 18 things, that happen in a month. Not only happen with me, but anything! It's sort of like a highlight of a month in my point of view. And that.. guarantees that I will post at least 1 in a month. hehe :D

LIVE FOR LABEL

In the past several months, I've stumbled upon couple of posts about introvert. And yes, they are really interesting to read that I found myself browsing through the net for some more about it. Meanwhile, I also questioning who creates the word itself? I mean, why do people label others? why do they label themselves?

Extrovert or Introvert? There is even a quiz for finding out "Are you an extrovert or an introvert?" and everyone who plays it praying inside not to be an introvert.

Let's just leave extrovert behind.

HOT COCOOOAA

hot cocoa is.. HOT!

I burned my tongue this morning because of a tempting cup of hot cocoaaaa :9.

by the way, as I am a fan of Spongebob Squarepants, here is one of my favorite episode of them :)). Pineapple Fever episode

WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

"Put your first priority on what you really want then need! Yes, WANT! Because, most of the time, what you really need will bore you as hell. So, you better make yourself happy first, then you can think clear and do good things you need to do."

WHATEVER

I want to be able to say ‘whatever’ to every annoying things said by everyone, without having to feel not good about what they’ll feet about it.

Like, can you ‘whatever’ your parents?

GONE

The past doesn't make me scared.
What makes me scared most is realizing that time goes by so fast.
And I am here, looking at the two to five years old pictures that seem like just happened yesterday.
Most of the people in it are now far away, and they have changed too.
I miss them so much.

GBT

kalo lagi suka sama orang itu.. rasanya pengen ketemu terus. padahal kalo udah ketemu, I can barely stare at his face. tapi, seakan-akan tiap hari tuh gw jadi kayak:

“hey, are you free tonight?”

HEARTBEAT, BEHAVE PLEASE!

Wanna know something? I feel freakin nervous today.

I’m so nervous I can’t breath.

I’m so nervous I think I wanna throw up.

BAMA, I RRR YOU.

This is Bama.

Until now, he’s a cat that has lived with me for the longest time, compare to my previous cats.

2012

I knew it.

When I start writing about something, meaning = I’m really into it.

and yes, I started to write about you.

So, what do you think? :)

BEAUTY

Dear (fill out your name), I mean you, whoever's reading this :)

SAD FACE, I HATE YOU.

It’s 10:44 am.

I’m staring at the computer screen. Looking at my older sister’s picture with her fiancée.

She looks so pretty, and happy, aside from all the sad, depressing story she just told me yesterday.

About how she misses home, and how she want to stay away from it forever too.

IT'S MUCH TOO SOON TO LEAVE THIS EASY LIFE.

Never I thought before that I have to survive through medication for whatever worst things may happen to my health.

Such a long sentence, eh? And.. That makes me understand the situation and the feeling of people who have to live through medication, where most of the times, they feel tired or merely just don’t want to do all the things that might cure their illness.