SAD FACE, I HATE YOU.

It’s 10:44 am.

I’m staring at the computer screen. Looking at my older sister’s picture with her fiancée.

She looks so pretty, and happy, aside from all the sad, depressing story she just told me yesterday.

About how she misses home, and how she want to stay away from it forever too.

I look at myself and think how careless I become nowadays. I mean, careless to myself, physically.

I always love wearing eyeliner, not that it’s really important to talk about. But, now I never wear it anymore. I don’t even wear lipbalm now. I only wear moisturizer and face powder cake to top it.

Is that.. is it because when I knew I’m not a girl-without-illness anymore?

Is that the reason I become careless to my look?